Throne Room

When I found myself up and awake before daylight this morning, I didn't think much about it, not that unusual. When I began listening to one of my worship playlist, didn't think much about it; not unusual.. when something in the music inspired me to reach for the book I've been reading instead of drifting back into dreamland I thought, well now, there may be something going on here.
I love it when God wants to talk! I'm all over that, any time of day, any subject or location. He's got my attention, my heart, every thought. I gather close my pen and notebooks, my Bible, my reference devices, all of it at my





fingertips so I don't miss a thing. He may tell me something, but I'm the one who has to have the ears to hear. My uncultivated ears don't always catch the depth of where He is coming from. The word of God is deep, it's layered, there's colors and shapes, there are words that possess meanings that He intends for me to find. These meanings tell me what He's really thinking; they confirm for me the things I thought that scripture was speaking directly to me. They open my eyes, my ears, my senses to know Him more, to feel His 
great love for me, to express my love for Him.

Ah, and right there, how it all brings me to this breath takingly awesome moment with my beautiful Jesus as He allows me to 
seeHim; glimpses of beauty and radiance, faithfulness and purity, 

holiness and love.. I can't get enough; I need more, want more, giveeverything for just another glimpse of His glory. Will you go 
there with me? Forget everything else and just look up toward the 
heavens, find the face of our savior Jesus Christ and let Him speak to your heart? Today, He took me to Revelations  chapters 4-9, He spoke to me about throne room worship, He 
stirred my heart to want to be there, to join with the angels, the elders, living creatures and just gaze upon Him with the Father receiving the praises, all the glory that they deserve..  already my heart burns to be counted there, it was more that He invited me to come.. offered His hand to lead me there. Oh, I'm going there.. I lift my hands, I lift my heart, I gaze with my eyes, strain with my ears and thirst with every cell within me.. I'm coming Lord, I'm on my way.. your beauty beckons me..


Revelation 4
:8 "The four living creatures, each having six wings, were full of 
eyes around and within. And they do not rest day or night, saying:











                                                 "Holy, holy, holy,
                                                              Lord God Almighty,
                                                    Who was and is and is to come:10 "the twenty-four elders fall down before Him who sits on the throne and worship Him who lives forever and ever, cast their crowns before the throne, saying:

:11                              "You are worthy, O Lord,              
  
                            To receive glory and honor and power:

                                                   For You created all things.
                                          And by Your will they exist and were 
created"

Are you with me, can you envision this wonderous scene, this very real event taking place at this very moment just as it was 2,000 years ago when John visited and recorded his encounter? Can you let yourself be swept away in worship, in pure loving adoration for the Father, the Son and Holy Spirit?

I spent hours today just right there, I wrote pages upon pages, 
underlined nearly the entire chapters of  Revelation 4-9   as I read over and over, going deep into the references that lead me to many other chapters throughout my Bible and of course many more written pages of notes and lines and lines of underlining beautiful words that are breathing life into my very soul, watering and raising up armies
of healed cells that have the ability to conquer evil dying cancer 



cells.. (wow, I have no glue where that just came from! This honestly doesn't have anything to do with me and everything to do with Him! But,if He chooses to include healing today, I am on board!

Bare with me once more if you will, I'm not taking you on the full 
journey, but I really want you to See this too if you will:

Revelation 5:11  "Then I looked and I heard the voice of many angels around the throne, the living creatures , and the elders: and the number of them was ten thousand times ten thousand, and thousands of thousands,  :12 saying with a loud voice;


                                "Worthy is the lamb who was slain,
                                                     To receive power and riches and wisdom
                                               And strength and honor and glory and blessing!"

:13 "And every creature which is in heaven and on the earth andunder the earth and such as are in the sea, and all that are in them, I heard saying:

                          "Blessing and honor and glory and power,
                                  Be to Him, who sits on the throne,
                                                  And to the lamb, forever and ever!"


:14 "Then the four living creatures. Said, Amen! And the twenty four elders fell down and     worshipped Him who lives forever and ever. "


I hope you enjoyed that even half as much as I did, it was 
wonderful.. it excites me so to know that day and night the throne room is active with worship and burning adoration for God. I long to be there, but also feel that that I have a pretty sgood seat at this time and take every opportunity to let
myself be found on my face worshipping or standing with outstretched hands towards heaven calling out,
            Holy, holy, holy...

As tired as I was this evening, especially since I hadn't slept much last night, I crawled into bed and leaving the light on quickly dozed off into dreamland. In my mind I wanted to find music to listen to 
and easily could have clicked on one of my playlists, but sleepily I struggled for about an hour with my phone to no avail. Finally, something stirred me and I remembered an online book that I had 
been listening to so  I got to YouTube and scrolled through. I tend to do things in a half sleep state these days for whatever reason.


 There was a new video there that happened to say, Throne Room Worship! No way, right! Yes, Way! It couldn't be a coincidence, just couldn't be. I believe that my research into the throne room, this groups song and video for throne room worship, many others 
saying the same thing is a predestined place in history for Gods church, Gods people. He is inviting us into this realm, this place, a beautiful heavenly and even angelic visitation. Do we dare answer, do we dare not?
We were created to worship, shall we dance with the King of kings? Me first!


Enjoy this beautiful video, this truly excited people who are showing the world of their love and desire to be caught up in the throne room! That's where I long to be found!



Hugs,
Joann

                    Throne Room Worship

Well done, brothers and sisters, just lovely!!

THE JOURNEY part II

        

          The Road To Here

  If you haven't read part I to this post you can start at the beginning by scrolling down to the next article since I'm unable to remember the link set up-sorry. Then meet us right back here to get caught up with everyone else to just where things are in my world of  Cancer land.

In the midst of this cancer storm I am standing, am believing for complete healing from Jesus Christ, the healer and patiently awaiting the manifestation of that total divine miracle healing! I'm excited, no ecstatic about that! I know it's on its way, I have my hand up and in His perfect timing I believe I will see it. (details in the previous post as to why I'm so confident about that)

Here's the thing though, this could be the most difficult time for me to publicly make this stand. For me spiritually, I believe it's the most crucial time! It didn't just happen or come to me in story form and I jotted down my thoughts, no. This was planted deep within me a couple years ago by my Heavenly Father, through grace testing me, producing a hunger for truth, feeding me, teaching me and finally when it was wrapped up as truth and flowing through my very blood veins and interwoven into every cell of my body, I began to say it as fact. No more "ifs" or "hopes," no it is fact and truth in my life. 

I remember the first few times I spoke those words out loud to friends. It didn't quite sound like I thought it would and definitely 
wasn't heard in the way I had hoped. No one got excited or made much of it at all. But of course with loving support there was always a quiet agreement rendered. 
I get it! It's not an easy road to walk nor a very comfortable place to stand. When you're being a little on the radical side of life when has it ever been though? For every missionary who ever said they were going to some remote country to preach the gospel, I imagine they met with that similar quite support. What can someone really say back to, "God said,?"

Well, God did say, so many times, through His infallible word, through His leaders of today and to me, His child who has been bought at a very high price, with that precious blood that His faithful son shed for us on his journey to the cross, being brutally beaten for our transgressions and then hanging there for what must have seemed an eternity. Being naked in front of his family and friends, being ridiculed and mocked..I could go on..but I won't today, but you can read it for yourself in 
Matthew 27:27 of the Holy Bible. 

 I have spent most of my life trying not to envision the events of that day because when you really think of what he went through for us it's so hard to comprehend. But his great love for us won out over any doubts He may have had. That's where I had to get. I had to know that this is Gods will, I had to know what I was accomplishing and I had to be at a place where nothing else mattered and my eyes were set on Him and His great plan for my life. 


Honestly, I thought this post was going to be more about the medical side of what's going on right now, but that isn't what was on His mind this morning. Not yet anyway.. today is day #5 of my radiation treatments and I want to share some of that info because so many are going through this and you know, not one single person is prepared for that. I mean, how could you be? I will be back and explain what, why, and where soon, I hope you'll join me. Thanks for reading and I'd love to hear your thoughts and comments. 

Hugs,
Joann

The Journey

My journey  has been one of mixed roads and paths that have lead me to where I am right now. One thing that I have found and am in awe of is the constant grace that the Lord has extended to me to find myself here. Here, obviously a good place to be. Even so, I press on toward more and even higher ground. 

Just today God has enlightened my mind and so my very life with His love and mercy by speaking to me through His word. This living and breathing book that I cherish and treasure speaks to me daily, but sometimes there’s just this special breath that has breathed and its now a message to the very core of my being; a message that I can choose to incorporate deep within me or let it fall to the ground and slip away. Not the latter, not today!

If you’ve ever stood and believed for something, been desperate with no other hope except a miraculous move of God then this is for you. If you or someone you know is in the fight of their life, but wondering where God has been then you are exactly who I’m supposed to share with today.

Being diagnosed with terminal cancer 4 years ago set me on quite a rocky path, but has lead me to a deeper relationship than I ever thought possible with my Lord and savior Jesus Christ. I was no stranger to faith and had exercised my beliefs often, especially for my children and loved ones. I’m not sure why it’s easier to believe for someone else than for yourself, but that’s what I found when faced with a case for either God to intervene or to meet Him face to face at heaven’s gate.

Surprisingly for me, this journey would take me all the way back to the foundation, to the beginning of what do I believe and why before I could truly stand and say, “I believe!” To go forward, I had to go backward first. Trust me, backward is not a place you want to be. I guess it’s that wilderness place that everyone encounters at some point. I think my wilderness was the driest desert that ever existed and I’m quite sure I spent way too much time finding my way out of there than was necessary! Even so, I learned much, grew a lot and am so very thankful when I look back I see two sets of footprints in that sand. I wouldn’t have ever made it out had He not held me up.

The worst part of finding your true faith is the doubt and unbelief that attacks you. I actually encountered the enemy seething words at me that it’s not true, that it’s not real and that there’s not any hope for me. In times of weakness I was taken down by these thoughts and that lead to deeper drought of the Holy Spirit in my life. When you have no faith it’s impossible to please God, without God there is no hope.. and the vicious cycle continued. I had to make a stand, I would have to take that stand and never look back.. 

“I believe!”

I believe, but… does God really love me enough to heal me? I believe, but.. God didn’t heal “that person, or this person, so why would He heal me?.. I believe, but.. is it even His will to heal me..

I knew one day without a shadow of doubt that I was healed. God spoke to me, breathed His healing breath upon me and I will not let that be stolen from me. It wasn’t an instantaneous healing though and my body has not shown the manifestation of His promise, though I patiently wait with anticipation for that day.

In the meantime, in the waiting, I have found the most wonderful and beautiful encounters with Jesus. His love and mercy continue to wash over me daily and I wouldn’t trade what I’ve experienced with Him for any amount of healing. The showers of refreshing are always in the waiting, it’s when you are expecting and hoping, putting your trust and faith in nothing but His promises that you can look into His eyes and know His pure love. Without having received that thing that you want because you’ve realized that’s not what you really want, you just want Him, only need Him..

“Who is this coming up from the wilderness, leaning on her beloved? 

I awakened you under the apple tree. There your mother brought you forth; there she who bore you brought you forth.

Set me as a seal upon your heart, as a seal upon your arm; 

For love is as strong as death, jealousy as cruel as the grave; its flames are flames of fire, a most vehement flame.

Many waters cannot quench love, nor can the floods drown it. If a man would give for love all the wealth of his house it would be utterly despised.”                 

    Song of Solomon 8:5-7 

So gently and sweetly He speaks to my heart from Mark 9:23-24.                            

My Jesus said,

 “If you can believe, all things are possible to him who believes.”

“Immediately the father of the child cried out and said with tears,

“Lord, I believe, help my unbelief!”

Honestly, I couldn’t believe my eyes, couldn’t trust my ears. I’ve read these verses so many times and quoted the scriptures, but I had not ever grasped the truth of what Jesus said and why.

Earlier in the passage, verses 14-18 we see that this father had watched while the disciples tried to cast out his sons demon that he’d had since childhood, but they could not. Not only had they failed but the demon had put on a big show in front of everyone foaming at the mouth and convulsing. Because of their failure the father had lost hope and was struggling to believe. He wanted to believe Jesus, but he’d been shaken, his faith had been attacked and he’d seen the power of the enemy right before his very eyes.

But, Jesus said, 

“If you can believe, all things are possible to him who believes.”

So, the father chose to believe Jesus, not what he had seen or heard and his son was delivered! Now, this is faith! I have to admit, my faith had been shaken by what I’ve seen around me and by what I haven’t seen. I’ve compared myself to others and thought if they didn’t get healed why would I? But, that’s not truth. Truth is Jesus said that all things are possible to him who believes! I believe! Just because it wasn’t true or didn’t happen for someone else doesn’t mean it won’t happen for me! The enemy is stealing our faith by demonstrating his lies in front of us and we set our eyes on that instead of the truth of the gospel!

What about His perfect will though, how do we know that He wants to heal us? There seems to be that small voice in the back of our minds reminding us it might not be His will. How can we be sure? Well, this is what my Bible says:

“Now this is the confidence that we have in Him, if we ask anything according to His will, He hears us. And if we know that He hears us, whatever we ask, we know that we have the petitions that we have asked of Him.”  1John 5:14-15

So, there’s this confidence that we have and there are these promises that most all of us are believing and standing on. I know for me, Psalm 91 has been one of my go to declarations and I believe those words are for me, do you believe?

“He shall call upon Me and I will answer him; I will be with him in trouble; I will deliver him 

and honor him. With long life I will satisfy him, and show him My salvation.”                    Psalm 91:15-16

God’s salvation includes deliverance, health, welfare, prosperity, and victory! This word salvation also comes from a word that includes avenging, defending, preserving and rescue! These are His promises to us; this is His will for us- long life and health! 

This is our petition, this is our confidence:

“…who Himself bore our sins in His own body on the tree, that we, having died to sins, might live for righteousness- by whose stripes you were healed.” 1Peter 2:24

Either all of the word of God is true and the scriptures are to be believed or none of it is. I have to take it all, believe it all and if I believe I must stand on that truth and not be swayed or look at the tricks of the enemy. Everything else is in the hands of God.

I hope and pray for you that in the waiting you find strength, that you experience the deep love of Jesus and that your prayers are answered according to His great love for us! It will take a real and deep encounter with our savior to take a stand and not be shaken, but oh the joy and love once we’re in that place. 

“I believe!”

Blessings,

Joann Walters                                                                       

2/01/19